February is a black month for me...I lost my mom February 3, 2003 & my dad on February 21,2009. Cathy and Jo are gone too. The pain of losing them has faded and the good memories have replaced the pain. I always felt guilt that I did not do enough but I know now I did the best I could and that I did enough. But I sure do miss them.
I don't like sharing things but its ok here since no one reads this blog. I can get it off my chest without putting things on the line. I am lonely. More than I thought possible. I survive ok but sometimes I am overwhelmed and this is one of those nights. It's a big pity party. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of being lonely. I'm not sure what bad thing I did but I must have done something or I would not hurt this bad.
I'll be ok again tomorrow.
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